I found myself thinking, I want things to fall into place faster, I want to get to my goal faster, I want this to all happen now. I even told my mother—in a moment of self-pitty—that I felt like I wasn’t doing anything with my life. She just kind of let me have my crybaby day and listened to me, because she knows how I am—she knows I am always trying to do too much at once and am just now learning how to ease up on myself when I need to. She knows I am stubborn and impatient with myself.
But I am beginning to learn the true importance and gift of relishing the joy that is always attainable at any given moment, even when it seems completely misplaced, totally out of sight… it is still there. That is not the issue. The issue is when we choose not to feel it, when we suppress it and drown ourselves in worry and fear. The issue is when we choose not to share our joy, so others can feel theirs too.
This morning, I was teaching a yoga class and during the Pranayama (breathing technique) Nadi Shodhana (alternate nostril breathing), I felt a sense of relief and happiness wash over me. I felt my lips turn up and a big smile spread across my face.
While teaching yoga, I am always there- 100% body, mind and spirit. That is one of the reasons I love it so much- it keeps me so grounded and so very present. And today, I felt inspired again and uplifted…. Thankful for this chance to share yoga… Thankful to feel like I truly belonged in that exact moment, in that studio. There was nowhere else I could have wanted to be… nothing else I would rather be doing.
Sometimes it takes pivotal moments to change our mindsets, but once we experience them, we can naturally come back to the center—to acceptance and release… to surrender. We can see that simply living from the heart and taking steps- however big or small- down each of our individual pathways is worthwhile—it is success. It is "doing something with our lives."
As cliché as it is—that saying: It’s about the journey, not the destination--- It is so true. And I constantly have to remind myself of that—or I am just going to be unfulfilled until I reach a certain goal or get a certain job or a certain relationship. Then, I will get there and still unsatisfied because I will be reaching for something else.
So, instead of obsessing over what is not happening right now, I will take advantage of what is happening—and honor every step along the way. Each step is a chance to change, grow and expand into a better version of myself. And instead of wondering if this will happen or if that will happen, I will consciously choose joy, creating space in my mind to relax, participating in what is happening right now. Because what my mother always tells me is absolutely true:
“You are exactly where you need to be.”